LJ Idol S5 Topic 8: Sit Down and Shut Up

OKAY, DUMBASS. I GOT THE DAMN MESSAGE.

 

STOP TRUSTING PEOPLE. DON’T BE SO GODDAMNED NIAVE.

 

Message received.  TEN-FOUR.  What the FUCK, over?

 

The news was like a bomb. The kind that if you hear it, it means you’re safe and if you don’t hear it, well, you didn’t feel a thing.

 

BUT I DO FEEL SOMETHING, OKAY?

 

I’m angry! I’m hurt! I’m disappointed! I feel so fucking stupid.

 

I was USED, man. Son of a bitch.

 

I counted you as a friend. One of the main people around here I could count on. I thought you had my back. But, you were just holding a knife to it.

 

Oh, looking back now, I see what a crafty little plan you hatched out. It’s actually really clever. You put your intelligence to use. I just wish you’d used it for good instead of evil. You put your contacts to use. You put me to use. Researching, discussing, accessing. All right here.

 

“Just as a hypothetical”, you said. “For instance, if…”, you said. “What we really need to do…”, you said.

 

Laughing behind my back.

 

Son of a bitch.

 

You got close to me. I shared personal things with you that I don’t share with anyone else. You told me things that were personal, but I wonder if every goddamned thing you ever told me was a lie. HOW COULD YOU?

 

When the news comes out, I wonder how many more of us there are?

 

Oh, you bet your ass that you are sitting down and shutting up now. I wouldn’t want to be in the seat that you’re in right now.

 

I don’t think any of what you took from me will be enough of a consolation prize. I hope you get what you deserve.